This weekend marks 100 days since the lockdown began in the UK on Monday 24th March. I started isolating a few days earlier so we have been living this new life for a little longer. In fairness, we haven’t been completely isolating recently since forming a “bubble” with my parents, however, it feels like a number we should acknowledge. I…
Flying Completely And Utterly Solo
I’ve been sitting on this post for a while but it felt appropriate to post it at the end of mental health awareness week. The world is struggling right now. Everyone has had their limits pushed and the ground has shifted beneath us all. The saying “it’s ok not to be ok” is bounding about and it is true. None…
My Journey Through Time
I’ve been mulling over ideas for a 1st birthday post. I could do something soppy or profound. I could tell my birth story but I’m still too traumatised to do that. So I thought I’d put the timeline of my journey in a post. Getting to Scarlett’s first birthday is a big thing, so how did I get here? The…
The Power Of Love
“The power of love A force from above…” Western society is structured around couples. There is an expectation from childhood that you will be part of a pair one day. Most stories, whether on page, stage or screen, feature love stories. A quest to find true love. The world is forever matchmaking and assuming connections between two people. So what…
277 Days Pregnant, 277 Days Here!
Scarlett grew inside me for 277 days. She began as one egg that I watched blossom on screen. She came from my right ovary, not many people get to know that, and she evolved into an embryo of perfection. Safe inside of me for nearly 300 days she grew and grew (and grew!!) I miss being pregnant, I miss feeling…
Surviving The First Six Months
Initially this blog post had the opening sentence “Scarlett is six months old today.” But due delays in the proceedings let’s change that… Scarlett is 6mths old now. She arrived in this world half a year ago. It really does feel like she’s been here forever and yet it’s gone so so fast. I can honestly say it has been…
Embryo Transfer – One Year On
I’ve been trying to write a blog post but someone doesn’t like sleeping in the day and when she does I don’t like putting her down. From a practical point of view she sleeps longer when on me so why would I risk putting her down, but the real reason is that I love our sleepy cuddles. Scarlett slept on…
Mother’s Day – My Turn At Last
Today is Mother’s Day in the UK. It’s a day I’ve found hard my whole adult life. A day that reminded me that so many people around me were mummies and had these beautiful little people in their lives. I have so many special children in my world and I am so lucky to be a part of their lives…
Approaching Your Due Date – The Longest Month Ever!
I am currently only a few days away from my due date and the rumours were true these last few weeks have been the longest of my life!! I’ve had three “two week waits” in my journey to have a baby. Those two weeks between ovulation, and treatment in my case, and the day your period is due…will it arrive?…
The Recipe For A Perfect Baby Shower
A week or so ago I had my baby shower, MY baby shower for m e! It was an amazing day and I felt quite overwhelmed by the love and support in the room. I was surrounded by most of my closest friends and I thought how much it meant to me to have them all there and to…